Never Lost - Jesus

Randomness, Reflections & Introspection, Worship & Prayer

The Day I …

23 Aug , 2017  

Tired but not knocked out

It was a peaceful night outside… I laid in my bed at midnight listening to some worship music (Never Lost – Rita Springer & Catherine Mullins) on repeat. Anyone who truly knows me knows that I am a repeater – by accident and on purpose. This night, it was on purpose. I even jumped on Instagram to post a picture about the song. About 15 mins go by and something shift in my heart and mind. I was completely discontent with just about everything. I felt like I couldn’t breathe and that I needed to get away. For me, my favorite times with Jesus is when I drive and it’s just him and I. I jumped in my car and start driving while still listening to the worship song on repeat. As I started to drive from my house, it started to lightly rain and drizzle. I ended up at a Walmart. It was here that forever changed my night.

It was about 12:30 am, August 16th, 2017… and I screamed at God. In prayer, I began to explicitly and passionate scream about my situation and how I felt. I laid everything that was in and on my heart. Every feeling, emotion, doubt, brokenness, hurt and concern. I admitted my struggle with not feeling God near in times of uncertainty, lack of faith with seemingly unanswered prayers, feelings of tiredness (mentally, spiritually and physically). It was after this moment that I felt a nudge of the Spirit. I begin singing the song I was listening to as a declaration over my life. The chorus of the song says this:

Wind, listen to the sound of power on my lips
Jesus has broken the curse, He has never lost a battle
Who are you great mountain, that you should not bow low
Jesus defeated the darkness, He has never lost a battle

Immediately started to cry as I began to sing these words not just out of my mouth and heart… but from my spirit. My lamentation slowly became my praise. After about listening to the song all the way through in silence, I changed the song to King of My Heart. I started praising Jesus for the victory before it happens as well as thanking him for what he is doing in my life and what he has already done. I listened to this song two more times before changing the song to a Spontaneous Medley by Daniel Bashta. While leaving from the Walmart parking lot, I felt at peace and was able to go to sleep when I got home. It was probably the best night’s rest in a long time. Fast-forward to 6:30 pm that same day…

My pastor at the church calls an impromptu prayer meeting that he felt the Lord whispering for the church and what was next for our context of ministry. I went in, tired and hungry for the Spirit of God and natural food! I went to the altar just to kneel and sit as I soak in God’s presence. This song that I have never heard, Extravagant by Bethel Music came on. As I was praying and listening to the words I begin to get teary-eyed. One of my best friends came over and just passionately prayed over me hope, strength and fulfilled promises. The song changed to I Need You More by Kim Walker-Smith. I haven’t heard this song in years, so I started to sing it out loud. My pastor came over as I was just sitting down on the floor and laid hands on me. He asked if I would stand and begin to speak life into me. He prayed over me hope, fulfilled promises and endurance for the journey. While all of this was going on, I received text messages from two other best friends who responded to my earlier text about prayer and my experience the night before.

Thank you Jesus

I said all this to say… this journey with Christ is not always easy or even pretty but it is worth it. We have to be vulnerable with Jesus and others we trust. God doesn’t grow apathetic or emotionally disconnected to our situations. God is not easily offended when we approach him with our cares, cries, laughter or even screams. He can take our issues! This was what made King David so near and dear to God, that God called him a man after his own heart. David gave everything to God – good, bad and ugly. In seasons of good & joy, seasons of weakness & failures and seasons of uncertainty, David honored God with being vulnerable and honest. This is what it means to be in an authentic relationship.

As I am writing this is what the Spirit of the Lord is saying:

The voice of fear, doubt, and hopelessness may be screaming loud in your mind but the voice of Jesus whispers a louder word in your heart and spirit. His voice says you are loved, not forgotten and filled with hope. His voice says “I have never lost a battle and I won’t lose one now. I will fight for you and you will overcome – just as I have overcome the world. Keep believing, keep enduring and keep declaring… my faithful son and daughter!”

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Reflections & Introspection, That'll Preach Sayings, Worship & Prayer

The Testing of Your Faith

21 Apr , 2016  

Posted this on Facebook last week and wanted to share it on my blog as a journal entry:

“Count it all JOY, my brothers,[a] when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the TESTING OF YOUR FAITH produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its FULL effect, that YOU may be perfect and complete, LACKING IN NOTHING. ” James 1:2-4

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This perfection and completeness in life will come from a FULL dose of perseverance through the storms, loneliness, battles, and the hardships of life. In jest & jokes, we #TheStruggleIsReal, yet it is all too familiar as we suffer (usually in silence). But there is a JOY that ONLY God gives when we meet difficult situations. A joy that SPEAKS LOUDER than our woes and even our foes!

Hang in there beloved… Surround yourself with encouraging friends. Get in God’s Word as you saturate yourself in worship & prayer. You can do this and its not going to get the best of you. Your struggle as you produce perfected perseverance could be the alarm clock to someone else’s deliverance and breakthrough. #ThoughtsFromBed #Joy #Perseverance #Faith

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Leadership, Reflections & Introspection, Worship & Prayer

a dog and her crumbs

22 Mar , 2016  

Matthew 15:21-28 || Mark 7:24-30

  1. She was desperate (she cried out – Lord Have Mercy on Me)
  2. She worshipped (she knelt before his feet)
  3. She entered into a state of repentance

The Bible never records her name. This woman, who is identified by her nationality, understood her status and role in life. She realize at that moment that she was nothing.. And she went to the very person who could make her something. She humbled herself, cried out after him, worshipped him and accepted her position. Not a position of poverty or of sickness, or even helplessness for her daughter… but a position that would ultimately propel her into the Kingdom of Heaven… She was poor in Spirit.. Matthew 5:3

“Yes, Lord,” she said, “but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters’ table.”

Jesus rewards her faith by healing her daughter. Jesus always honors the faith that seeks mercy. She had no resentment, no anger about her situation; she only knew that Jesus was the Jewish Messiah who came to heal people, and for some reason He was in her town. She sought mercy from Him. And this time, Jesus responded with emotion (“O woman” has emotional force & undertones). Her faith was rewarded. And she became one of the early Gentiles to enter the kingdom.

Jesus went into a Gentile territory with a purpose… he was making a point that his Grace and Mercy was freely given to all those who thirst for him. He was sent to the house of Israel, but they chose to challenge & reject him.

She’s asking if Jewish “bad eating habits” resulted in a Gentile blessing. Can’t the Gentiles have what the Jews rejected? She wanted to know that if the provision that were made for the Jews was refused, could even the “dogs” take part in it now?

Sometimes, we are going to have to lay it all on the line… and it won’t matter what our family or friends say, nor what our culture/world tells us. We HAVE to be so desperate and radical about the things that matters to us the most. This woman understood all of this. WILL WE? When you are desperate enough to worship in humility, and begin the process of repentance, Jesus looks passed the “identifiers” and circumstances of life and touches your now. This women’s faith saved her daughters life. What will your faith do?

 

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Leadership, Reflections & Introspection

Miraculous???

11 Feb , 2015  

I wonder if we miss the miraculous because we fail/unwilling to do the ridiculous.

Jordan Sharrett on Ridiculous Obedience 2/10/15

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Leadership, Randomness, Reflections & Introspection, Student Ministry, That'll Preach Sayings

The Fall Collection

4 Jan , 2015  

The Fall Collection

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Leadership, Reflections & Introspection, That'll Preach Sayings

Hold. Trust. Stay

19 Dec , 2014  

“Hold to the vision, trust God’s process & stay the course!” // Words that are dear to me in this season. #JesusFocused #FaithfulGod

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Leadership, Reflections & Introspection, That'll Preach Sayings

The Lovesick Longing

24 Jun , 2014  

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when the desire comes, it is a tree of life.” – Proverbs 13:12

When God delays the answers (results) to our prayers, we can become disappointed and dismayed. When our hope (expectation/desire) is delayed or deferred, then our heart becomes sick with despair. Our prayers and life itself can only be sustained and energized by active intimacy with Jesus. He knows the intricate details of our heart and the voids that needs to be filled with more of him. The hardest part about these delays or meantime journeys is the waiting. The waiting proves to be a place of joy during the times of deferment. No matter the season of life we are in, we must remain satisfied with God and never forget his goodness, even when we don’t see it, hear it or feel it.

The Shulamite women in Song of Solomon 5:8 charged the women of the city with passion… “If you find my Lover, please tell him that I am lovesick for him.” This is a cry for those who sense the Lord is not near, to remind the ones who may encounter Jesus, that they are lost and madly in love with him to the point of sickness. And that him being near is the only relief. The beauty of this is that she, the Shulamite women went searching for her Lover, Solomon (a shadow of Jesus), through the dark night and even being ravished by other men she continued the long search. When the “Dark Night of the Soul” comes and it comes to everyone, are we still willing to draw near to our Lover, Jesus? Are we still willing to forsake everything so that we may find him? Are we in a place to say – I AM LOVESICK… Though it looks hopeless, He is my desire!

My personal prayer for you and myself is that we will lean in closer to Jesus when we feel and see the delay and are in this meantime journey of life. That we can boldly say we are Lovesick for Jesus and he’s our everything and not just say it but live it with our actions/choices! So continue to hope and pray for those things that you want and desire, continue to draw near to the Lord in joy for he will accomplish his perfect work in and through us if we remain near. God wants to awaken your passion for him as you reclaim your adventures in chasing after him. Enjoy the chase!

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Ephesians 3:17-18
Proverbs 13:12
Song of Solomon 2:5/SS 3:1-5/SS 5:2-8
Phil 1:9-11
Hosea 12:6

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